That was my max vertical leap when playing club volleyball.
Sat down with the coach today to talk about my results…
He told me that my hands, technique, and heart are perfect. He wants me to play. That i’m, “a leader who can not only lead this team with skill, but with the drive & motivation. an ideal captain & setter.” But, “you need to be stronger Taaj.”
Coach pulled out my stats profile from club as well as Cypress.
we opened up to a page that had a picture of me and read “Physical” and even I was shocked! dam i looked huge! like i was buff! what did I ever complain about?! We continued to read through the profile…
Cypress Body Fat percentage 10%
Club Body fat percentage 7.5%
Body build: Beyond exceptional
Fastest Mile: 5:19
and the one that caught me off guard the most and snap me into reality…
MAX VERTICAL: 40.5 inches.
My max vertical was 40.5 inches…Holy crap! I mean, i knew i used to be able to dunk and getting over the volleyball net was easier for me, but never had i seen my numbers!
I was stronger, bigger, faster, just overall FIT. I truly was what many know me as now…fitness. I no longer deserve that term! Because we looked over my past profile, he pulled out my physical sheet taken this week….
Curent Body Fat percentage 23%
Body build: Satisfactory
Fastest Mile: 6:53
MAX VERTICAL: 28 inches.
"You think you’re messing up your hitting or passing because your technique is wrong. but it’s just cuz you don’t get high enough and you’re slower now."
I sat there…astonished at what I had become…in disbelief and disappointment. I was a failure. Not only was I not deserving of playing on this team, i wasn’t deserving of the title fitness. I began to sink deeper in my chair feeling i didn’t deserve to even be in that gym.
"This isn’t a time to be sad Taaj, this is a time to step up. Your technique is at NCAA level! Honestly, I first saw you walk in the gym and didn’t think you knew much of volleyball or anything due to the fact you quit Bosco and club, but you proved me and the staff wrong! If you wanted to you could easily play at a 4 year university." Then he said something that just made me lift up my head with hope. "You have the skill Taaj, you need the body. You have to keep working. I don’t know whats been up with you or going on in your life, but I can’t imagine it’s been easy if you’ve let yourself go this much. but if you want this you need to focus kid and get back on track."
He was right. I totally lost the focus and drive to be the best. I settled for good enough, when i should have demanded more from myself!
"I expect to see you tryout again next year, only I do expect you to be bigger, faster, and get higher."
And so I will…
I’m going to get back to where I once was. I WILL be fitness again. No more being lazy and hopeless.
and i post 40.5 inches as the title so i may remember what I once was…and what i need to be again…or BETTER!
I WANT THIS!
I WILL WORK FOR THIS!
I will play volleyball. height or no height…i’ll have the muscles and build necessary to compete with the rest. I had forgotten it wasn’t stature that won the game…it’s how bad you want it. And i want it so fckin bad. I haven’t wanted it this bad in a LOOONG time.